Eclipse of the Heart...

2009-05-31T20:43:00.023+08:00

Freedom & Seha - Mulanya Di Sini
(click to listen)

~~sama sama menjejak mimpi~~
sama sama mencari dan menanti
segalanya direstui cinta sejati
sama sama gunung didaki
sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
suka duka bersama dirasai ~~~~

There are various people at various point along the path, with different faces and different names, through a kursus named -Induksi, Bil 4/2009, they met each other. From the 1st night where a group of 52 peoples were called one by one to intro themselves, till the last night where everyone was giving their best shot in their "persembahan dalam kumpulan", and with a renewed sense of friends and 'commitment' that has come upon us, i felt it's a completely different kind of life. Especially the last night presentation, none of these would be possible without each of the group member's tenderness in making it an amazing scene.

.The 'botak' gang.

Same height???

.The tallest and the shortest.

.The eldest and the youngest.

.Group 4.

.Group 5.

.Group 6.

.Group ?.

.Barisan Urusetia.

.Hari.. hari sabtu? hari ahad?.

.Vijay - The pokok Melaka. ^-^

Yah, am back, from BTN and induksi.
A total of 18days.
Scheduled timetable.
Lectured & LDK.
Senaman pagi & riadah.
Study & exam.
Games & TeamBuilding.
Tired & Exhausted.
Yet, enjoyed & gonna miss it!!

To be continued...

2009-05-03T21:22:00.003+08:00

Je t'aime Manchester United!!

A reason to love, a reason to stay, a reason to support, a reason to be the one, and a reason to fall for.

We are the Champions. No matter how many times we lost. We are still the champions. Deep inside the heart.

GoGo.

2009-04-27T21:15:00.002+08:00

I hate 27th!

But I love 29th!

I dislike celebrating Xmas!

But I enjoy listening to Xmas Songs!

Moi is going to Sabah in August and Bali in Oct (if everything sails smoothly according to plan, kekeke...)

Pray for me guys. :)

.XoXo.

2009-04-14T18:55:00.010+08:00

Yes!! It's done finally!!

The agenda book for the coming kursus in Hospital Tuanku Ampuan Najihah.

The cover page.

The agenda.

And the end....

Solely done by using photoshop software. Comments and criticizes are all welcomed. :)

Till then, see you guys.

2009-04-13T17:02:00.007+08:00

My favourite P.A.R.F.U.M.E is finished!!!!! Arghhh.......... another unlucky day for me!!!! Why why tell me why I'm the unlucky one???

*It is these small little imperfections that make them perfect.* A meaningful sentence. To watch the full video, click here.

Is currently listening to : I can wait forever - Simple Plan

2009-04-13T15:36:00.003+08:00

Haiz...what an unlucky day man...

Bang my car this morning. What? Again? Yeah, again, the 2nd time to be exact. Luckily mum didn't nagged much this time and didn't 'suspend' mah driving license. Lollll... Basically it was just a small accident. My emergency brake just couldn't save me from the accident and there gone my car bumper. It dislocated a little bit from the body and my car bonnet was a bit raised up. But the overall condition is still 100000x more better than the 1st time.

Me : (Get out from the car, panic, shocked, terrified, adrenaline was at its highest peak i supposed) I'm sorry.

30+year-old Indian guy : What are u rushing for? You see you have made the traffic even more worse. xx@##%xx#@%#%x@

Me : Let's drive to the side 1st.

So we drove our car to the side and he cont. bla bla bla while examining his car bumper. I stood aside, thinking what if his car bumper suddenly fall off and how much $$ I need to pay him. Luckily, there was only a ~4cm crack.

Me : Hmm...ur car seems okie, so I would just pay u RM50.

30+year-old Indian guy : Eh, RM50??? From outside it seems okie, but I couldn't see the inner part. What if the compartment that store my spare tyre is dented or spoiled?

Me: (OMG, his ridiculous statement tirggered my anger) Eh pls la, I hit on ur car bumper (I step forward and knocked on it), hear that? Inside is nothing. You don't tell me your car boot is spoiled and claim on me.

30+year-old Indian guy : (Open his car boot and had a thorough checked on it) You see, it's dented (pointing at a dented place).

Me : Eh uncle, I hit on your car bumper, not on ur car boot. (Gosh, I dunno how many times I need to repeat this sentence)

30+year-old Indian guy : (running his fingers over his car bumper over and over again to search for any small little tiny scratch or crack that his eyes might miss it) Well, I cannot see it clearly now since it's very dark.

Me : (7.05am, dark? wtf ) So do you need my car's spotlight??

30+year-old Indian guy : .......

Me : Okla, I pay you RM50 and done.

30+year-old Indian guy : Eh cannot la!!!!

Me : So how much you want then?

30+year-old Indian guy : (trying to think think a while) okie, Rm150.

Me : Wah RM150??!!!! No, I'm not going to pay you that much coz' it doesn't worth that much. You don't think I'm stupid or I'm a girl that don't know much about the car (trying to act act like I know though I don't really know la =p)

30+year-old Indian guy : Eh, now it's your fault okie, you hit me from behind. If we reported this to the police, you need to pay the RM300 summon.

Me : (His super wtf statement lagi trigger my anger) Eh, I didn't deny that's my fault, and you don't have to keep reminding me that it's my fault. Ok, the most I can give you is RM100.

Well, in the middle of our conversation, his dad arrived. Mark you, his DAD!! A 30+year-old guy called his dad to come and settle the problem. Ha. Funny. Me, a going-to-be 24 year-old little gal, settle it myself instead. (hehe....coz I couldn't get my dad at that time)

His dad didn't say much and I just paid him Rm100. The indian guy accepted it happily and the story ended. Guess what, he even told me to drive carefully while on my way to work. grhhh......

Took EL and got my car fixed at uncle's workshop. So here gone my wondeful Mon morning.

2009-04-09T18:32:00.002+08:00

Unspoken Thoughts

A simple little girl.
And a simple life.
Need not promises.
Need not 24-hours.
Need not flowers.
Need not expensive pressie.
Need not the Sky, the Moon, the Stars, or the Sun.

All I ask for.
Nothing but just true love.
From the bottom of your heart.
Love me for you want to.
And care for me for you want to.
Not responsibility or sympathy.

Love me like how you loved her.
The way I wish you would.
And the way I know you could.
Sounds easy, yet it's the hardest thing ever.

I should have knew from the start.
Where you can never do the same to me.
For you can never be the same.
Where you can never treat me like how you treated her.
For I am a different her.
And can never be with me.
For I might not be the one.

I thought I could be the one.
The one that lead you out from the past.
The one that change your world.
And show you the other happier side of the fields.
Where the grass is greener.
Beautiful with flowers.

I thought I could be the one.
The one that draw the smiles on your face.
The one that brighten up your days.
And show you the other happier side of the world.
Where the Sun shines brightly.
Beautiful with puffs of white.

I am over-confidence.
I am wronged.
And I've failed.
I knew I shouldn't compare.
I knew I shouldn't expect much.
But how could I?
For I knew too much about your past.
And the story ended.
Nothing but just friend.
Is this what we called Fate?
And we both lost to it.

2009-04-01T18:41:00.007+08:00

.A Memorable Saturday.

What you did last Saturday? Well, as for my mine, went to Pavilion with Jane, Justin, and SYT. Elaine Dorotha cant join us for fun as she’d some catch up sessions with her s’pore friends. And yah, where is our another usual hang out gang member, TYM? Her knee was injured during the futsal game last Thursday. So she has difficulty in walking (according to her) and decided to rest more in order to get well soon. (then can go paktoh with somebody??? *cough cough* Oh, this one I dunno. Haha, kidding, TYM don’t kill me if you saw this =p)

Okie, if you are thinking we shopped a lots, then you are wronged. Yah, we did lepak in some shops while waiting for SYT to come and join us for lunch. But then we did some really interesting stuffs after Justin left us. SYT and Jane went to Fish Spa which is located at a corner near Redbox Plus, and OMG, Jane’s expression was superb when she first put her leg into the small pond where it’s fulled of small little tiny fishes. 3 of us really laughed till stomach cramp and luckily not many customers that time. As for me, I just sat there and help them to take some pic. Yah, I know I’m coward, for I’ve really no gut to try it, but but but…. I will try it someday. :) Trust me.

We then headed for our movie called Knowing. Wanted to watch Confession of a Shopaholic at first but the ticket was sold out. It’s a worth-to-watch movie overall though the ending is a bit cacat. Yah, the same cinema in Pavilion again. Went with someone last year. It’s kinda nostalgic, isn’t it. But if I let the emo-ness strikes me everytime I go to the place where we’d been before, how could I lead a happie life? (Except for a place where I will never dine there again la) Since he has moved on so well, why would I still hanging in the past? I should have moved on too, coz’ I know if I’m not, I’m gonna be abandoned by this world. I don’t dare to look back on how I’ve gone through the past 2 months lor. Not even a single word of consolation from him wei. The fact is cruel. He is cruel. Slept with tears at 12midnight and woke up with tears at 3am or go to work in a pair of bengkak eyes is not chun at all wei. But I survived over a range of sadness and obstacles! Hooray! Over the past few months, what I did was: I tried my best to cut off all ties with him, I tried my best to cut off all the feelings I have towards him, I tried my best to lead my life without him, I tried my best to restrain myself from looking back, I tried my best to shut off the playback of past memories, I tried my best to erase everything. I’m really sorry if I got no choice but to persuade myself to hate him, for this is the only way to speed up the healing process of a broken wound. Papa always says 命里有时终需有，命里无时莫强求. Well, be positive thinking, be optimistic, be happie, for everything is fated.

Okie okie, enough for the playback. Back to the happier side, we headed to a restaurant called Shook in Starhill for dinner after the movie, as according to SYT there is some function about the Earth Hour going on in that restaurant, where they will switch off the light from 8.30pm till 9.30pm and you will be having candlelight dinner throughout that hour. The function was actually hosted by Ruth Yeoh, the Director of Investments (YTL Corp Company), and supported by losta celebrities. Guess what!!! Spotted some celebrities like Deborah Henry, Stephanie Chai, Hannah Lo and Deanna Yusoff. Of course, we wont miss the chance to take photo with them and thanks to SYT’s iphone.

The group photo.

And another one.

From left: Hannah Lo, SYT, Stephanie Chai, Deborah Henry.

Hannah Lo, Stephanie Chai and Me.

OMG!!!! Stephanie is gorgeous, Deborah is chun, and Hannah is stunning!!!! They are soooooooooooooooooo pretty!!!!! Okie, I know you guys must be laughing at my 审美观, but trust me, they are really HAWT!!!! How I wish I could have their face and their body, thin, tall, pretty, sharp features…. Oik, stop dreaming la. Sigh. Yah, I know our senyuman abit kejang, coz' we're super KAN CHEONG wei.

Okie, back to the dinner part, so we ended up have our candlelight dinner (my first candlelight dinner is gone *blush blush*) in a restaurant which served Spanish food becoz’ Shook was fully booked. And the baked cheesy scallop was superb!! I’m loving it!! I’m so sorry that all these fakta-fakta are not supported by photos. Coz’ I forgot to bring along my newly bought camera. Eh, please forgive me la as I did not expect we will go to this kind of event mah and the camera is too heavy for me to carry it and jalan-jalan along. Haha, SYT said she very regretted for didn’t remind me about that. Okie, gimme some times and let me learn to master it first k. Btw, won't be able to on9 coz' modem at home was spoiled since last week and thanks to SYT and "her housemates" for letting me to on9 at their home. Till then, see ya. :)

X.o.X.o

2009-03-31T22:32:00.001+08:00

I’m sorry,

I can’t be perfect.

I’m not good enough to be a girlfriend.

No experiences.

I’m a noob. A nooby Jia.

The song is sweet. But it’s not gonna happened on me. Sigh.

Hope?

I would if I could, but I know I can’t so I won’t.

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I start to love blogging

coz’ this is the only place

where I can express out my feelings freely

For I do not know how to say it out

so I shall let the words do the talking

though

I know my English sucks.

I will continue in writing,

though

I know nobody is reading it.

2009-03-21T20:46:00.004+08:00

Songs for You. Truth for Me.

Crazy things that I wanted-to-do:

1. swim at night in a piece of turquoise colour evening gown (swimming pool)

2. build the sandcastle on the beach, run happily along the beach in the dusk and enjoying the romantic sunset view

3. piano+guitar+sing in the public

4. leave my footprints in every single places in the world

5. wish to celebrate birthday in few places:
- mount Kinabalu
- Bali island
- Aegean Sea/Santorini
- Sweden- a place to see Northern lights/aurora

is currently in love with the photo hanging on the wall.

Finished watching the long and boring tvb series, The Gem of Life finally... Going out tmr. So see you guys on Mon. Have a great weekend. :)

p/s: ohyah, just in case you guys are wondering when will i cont my study, got the reply from professor in-charged of Phd in Psychology in Manchester University saying that I need to do conversion course in order to further my study in this field. So will be wandering around in this country till I found my interest in another course.

.XoXo.

2009-03-20T20:28:00.005+08:00

A friend's words trigger my thoughts. And I think I had done a wrong thing. I reassured a friend that she is actually much more better than someone, which I don't think I should do that. She is optimism. She said even if she is a very good person, but this does not mean that she suits him. Yeah, I strongly agreed. Im thinking, if he goes after her first before he is interested in another her, they might make a good couple. and lead a happie life now. This is called 相逢恨晚.

Okie, I think I should stop nagging about the relationship part or else I would make this blog very boring. In fact, I'm bored and sien ady.

So, a little update about my life. Played mahjong and monopoly till late yesterday night. Intended to go for squash with Elaine Dorota at first but had a strong headache after lunch time. Had Tab Paracetamol 1g stat, and it took about an hour plus for the headache to go off. Um…this explains why people always ask for original med instead of generic one. =p So drove to work alone like a zombie this morning and luckily, farmasi staff and colleagues are nice and this gives me motivation to work everyday.

p/s: Thanks to Elaine Dorota for the box of Chamomile tea. :)

Went to Mid Valley laz weekend and thanks to Jane for the updates. Something that I wanted to buy it long long time ago. And Yeah, I have bought it finally! It's so expensive, nearly my 1month pay! Arghh... I'm broke now. But happie. *Dance in joyfulness* Actually I just planned to have a look initially but when I first saw the one that I'm interested in all this while, my heart fell for the 1st sight. Asked some opinions from cousin's husband. Then called up a friend for some opinions too. And someone called when I was still considering to buy it or not to buy. He told me just go for it if Im really like it. No regret. And yeah, I bought it in the end. (In order to protect others' privacy, I would not mention their name here, hehe..you can come and ask me personally and I might tell you la) And I need to learn from basic coz' I know nothing about it. And I must master it before brother's wedding in Sept.

To Feli, don't laugh at me okie, I know you did it years ago in UK when I told you I wanna buy that. Lolll....

..XoXo..

2009-03-20T02:07:00.014+08:00

Dear diary:

This is a little gal’s story and it’s her very first time to say ‘this thing’ out to the public (though she knows not so many people are still checking out her blog, there might be not, and that’s why she’s brave to ‘publicize’ it here =p). Well, close friends of her surely understand ‘this thing’ refer to what. Anywhere, she just wanted to share her story and thoughts here. Not to comment or criticize anyone. It’s just a piece of thought of a gal who accidentally walked into a different world and finally found out she does not belonged to that world and walked out in broken pieces.

First of all, she would like to thank all of her friends, her best friends, close friends, normal friends and casual friends who are always there for her whenever she needs their comforts and helps. She told herself she will never ever take them for granted, least of all their feelings and caring towards her, it’s not just the big things, but the small gesture that she remember (if she manage to coz’ seems like she is having early stage of Alzheimer =p) and hold close to her heart like little jewels in small little precious velvet bag. She just wants to tell them she really appreciates everything and every encouragement that they gave along the path, and helps that they extend to her. She is always grateful that she has a bunch of best buddies that willing to stand by her and willing to share their happiness and sadness with her. Therefore, when she thought she has found her happiness and finally decided to share with her close friends, telling them how happie she is, everything has changed. She wished to receive 祝福from everybody. Frankly speaking, who would in this world dun wanna 被祝福. But things changed in just a click of eye. She is heart-broken and totally disappointed at that time. Honestly speaking, she does not like to hate people, becoz’ she knows when she hates people, at the same time, people might hate her too. She rather chooses to have a friend than to have an enemy. But since then, she starts to hate people who:

- make empty promises (though she always ffk her friends too)

- hurt her (though she knows sometimes she does hurt people too)

- run away when she needs help

- leave her alone (though sometimes she feels like wanna be alone)

- are cruel to her (though she knows sometimes she’s cruel too)

- lie to her (though sometimes she got no choice that she needs to lie too)

- over confidence (though sometimes she does)

- thought they are close to her and claimed they know her well but in fact they are not

- like to make judgement based on what they saw or what they heard and then comment on that somebody to have shallow thinking, for example.

- misunderstand her and misinterpret her thoughts or intentions

- Liverpool supporters coz’ she supports Man Utd, though she dislikes Arsenal too (of course this only apply to certain people la)

She just doesn’t like this kind of people, don’t ask her for the reasons. You can say she has shallow thinking, you can say she’s 小气, you can say she’s 心胸狭窄, whatever la, it doesn’t matter anymore. That’s why, she hate someone, a stranger and a passer-by. And she does not know, when will her hatreds turn to forgiveness. Anyway, she is now happier than before, coz’ lesser things to think and worried about. Hopefully this will give her eternal youth. Muahahaha……

p/s: I'm not angelic, I'm not kind-hearted, I'm a devil (to be specified, a Red Devil, okie, i know this is a bit lame...)

In-A-Relationship = Suckss…

To gals:

Things that shouldn’t do.

1. First of all, do not try to sayang his wallet. Do not ever think that you might be a financial burden to him and wanna share his burden. Coz’ guys would not appreciate it! They might think that you are trying to show off how rich you are or your financial status is better than him or you are looking down on him if you insisted to pay for your own meal or your movie ticket even though you do not have the intention to. No matter what he says, just choose to ignore it and let him pay for you. Pls don’t be too sensitive over things that he says that might make you feel that he is actually very sam tong after treat you a very expensive meal. You trying to be considerate but people do not feel it, so what’s the point??

2. If he brought you to his house, you should just go in and pay his family a visit la. Dun be shy and dun ever have the thought that it’s not a suitable time yet to meet up with his parents. Coz’ guys would not understand what are you thinking about. They might think that you do not have the intention to meet up with his family.

3. Shy or 矜持 is the failure of a relationship. Express out your feelings and do not hide it from him coz’ sometimes guys are just so stupid that they wont feel it. Don’t let them guess and do not expect them to understand your feelings la, coz’ they cannot be as细心as gals, it will take ages for them to understand it. Um… but this is a bit hard, especially to those gals who have used to keep their feelings to themselves. A very good example is the owner of this diary. For example, ‘I love you mum’ is a sentence that rarely come out from her mouth (maybe she used to say it when she was young la =p). To her, action can prove everything. No matter how loud or how many times you say ‘I love you mum’ but if you take no action to show it, it’s still nothing. Isn’t it? Agree?

4. Do not ever question the balancing between you and his friends even if he cares more for his friends than for you. Coz’ they might think that you wanna control them totally. Um…okie, this sounds so stupid. =p

5. Be proud of him. This is guy's egoism. And show it out coz' some guys are just so stupid that they might think you are more 'geng' and hence you are alwayz the dominator. But this sounds a bit stupid la coz' it seems like to publicize your proudness of him to the whole world. What's the point? Don't you think keep the love in the heart and let the actions speak the truth is much better?

6. Last but not least, all the gals out there, pls pump yourself up, be presentable, surely guys would wanna show off in front of their bro how ‘dim’ their gf is and at the same time get ‘approval’ from them. So gals, be clever, do not displease your guy’s best bro.

In conclusion, it's complicated and single is still the best, =p though you might feel lonely during some special events.

To guys: No offence la and for sure this does not apply to all guys. And gals, if you are thinking of wanna apply this in your current life, eh come on la, wake up!!! This is blardy silly and not worth it, coz’ this is really wtf. Be yourself becoz' you are who you are, if he cannot accept who you are, this means he does not like you much. So I'm sure you know what to do next.

2009-03-20T02:04:00.002+08:00

Went to MPH book fair which is located at the old Lim Kwok Wing University with cousin. Books are still very expensive though after reduction. Found this interesting book at the entrance of the book fair. It looks like a kid's story book but I'm amazed when I opened it. Amazed by its words and sentences. It says friends come in all shapes, ages, and stages. They can be your best friends, close friends, casual friends or normal friends. They might be funny, might be cool, might be talkative or might be lame. But the most important thing is that they will be there for you when you need them. This is friend. And so, I cannot accept a friend who betray me, hurt me, and then run away from me. I rather choose not to have them in my life than have them and make my life miserable. This sounds a bit weird but i got no choice but cruel to myself. Frankly speaking, I can forgive people easily becoz' dislike a person is not an easy matter, just like no matter how angry I'm with Mr. P but I would still talk to him the next seconds. But I could not persuade myself to forgive someone who really hurt me. Never, ever..

2009-03-18T00:48:00.002+08:00

Stunned! 4-1!!

Stunned, especially the last score. Really do not know what the Man Utd was doing in the match with Liverpool last Sat. Im so gek hei. Mark you, this is the very 1st time that I watched the football match until so gek hei. Vidic kena sent off. And Liverpool punya defence is undeniably great la that day (in my opinion). But still,

I HATE LIVERPOOL!!!! Though I dislike Arsenal too...

2009-03-12T18:23:00.007+08:00

.Untitled.

Well, i know i have abandoned this blog since long time ago. But pls forgive me for the lack of motivation in blogging recently, so many things happened, yet so little time for me to accept, adapt, and live life as usual. And I wanna thank God, for being so kind to me, im so lucky that i have a bunch of gud frens, yeah, they are really gud, they are alwaz there whenever i need them, they are my beacons when shadow descends and blocks my eyes.

Haiz... is this life?? Is the way ahead gonna be hard for me?? Where is my confidence?? Did i lost it somewhere someday?? Frankly speaking, after gone thru so many hardships, I really dunno how's my life gonna be. Work, is what I need to concentrate now. Nothing is perfect.

Still remember clearly when i was young, i promised myself and mummy that i will get a Phd title someday, and at that time, im really meant it. But now, i know i said it becoz im more to wanna run away from the world den the initial intention ady. Im so scared, this is not the real ying jia. How am i supposed to be??

Rebuild the confidence and self-esteem is a must!! This.. i promised myself. 12th of mac, 2009, 10pm.

The emotional part:
p/s: jz in case if my frens saw this post, (but i wonder how many ppl are still being the loyal reader of this blog) i would like to take this opportunity to say a big thank you for everything! And sorry if i trouble you guys or spoiled ur great day with my mood swing.

Reborn. Regenerate. Revive.

2009-01-12T21:57:00.001+08:00

Is currently in love with - You Don't See Me by Josie and The Pussycats

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and aching and tumbling and breaking

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when you’re touching my hand
But it twists into smoke
When I turn on the lights

I’m speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends?
Nothing but good friends

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Ahhh
The way I wish you would
Ahhh

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I’m falling apart
Isn’t this just where we met?
And is this the last chance that I’ll ever get?
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through and not enough to you

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

2009-01-01T08:06:00.004+08:00

Emo on the first day of 2009, it's gonna be a tough year ahead. Been freaking emo and uninspired recently. Sleep at 12midnight and wake up at 4plus early in the morning is not a fantastic experience. Prolly gonna take some xanax or dormicum someday. Pain killer is the only medicine to the pain and Sedation is the only solution to all the problems.

A happie new year to everyone out there and just pray for me that i'll get well soon and be blessed with lotsa love and happiness..

Love you guys.

2008-10-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

Day 1:
Yah, for a quite some time, being abandoned, i’m here. If you would to ask me “How do you feel today?” The answer wasn’t “pretty fine”, “good”, “so so”….

Isn't it odd that our spectrum of emotions can run from one far end of the street to the other end?

I told myself, I told everyones, it’s gonna be okie. But no. It’s not like that. It’s not gonna be okie. At least not, for this moment. My mind wants to understand, so I try to think, yet my heart tells me don’t.

She told me, “i’m so unwilling to leave” and my heart said, “so am i”. This is life, just bring the hopes that all those sweet and sour memories will move us to the next chapter of our life.

雨后的天空总会出现彩虹.

Drowns in my own emo-ness.

Day 2:
The moment we get closer, is the moment we will be drifted apart.

I tried to smile, and I did it, but not from the bottom of my heart.

2008-09-05T20:08:00.002+08:00

Just a little updates.

Am so sad, coz I lost my phone while having lunch with colleagues this afternoon. So in other words, I HAVE LOST ALL MY CONTACTS as well as those special reminders saved in my phone.

Im jz so sad....

All my frens out there, do leave me ur contact numbers. (via Email, MSN, facebook, friendster, etc etc etc....)

Does anyone wanna sponsor me a 3G iphone?? =p

2008-05-25T15:34:00.002+08:00

"Sir Alex Ferguson: I'll leave Manchester United by the time I am 70 - and this time I mean it.

This time there would be no going back, no quips about how his wife, Cathy, could not stand the thought of him at a loose end and constantly under her feet; Sir Alex Ferguson was quitting. Truly. He chose the last and cosiest of his briefings with journalists after the Champions League triumph to savour the Champagne and declare that Manchester United would have a new manager in maybe two years - three at the ''very, very, very, very most". By the spring - or trophy distribution time, as this inveterate football man would view it - of 2011 he would be 69, and enough was enough, for all the enduring drive and enthusiasm that had led him to build yet another great team. ''I won't be managing at 70," he said. "

adapted from telegraph.co.uk

2008-05-11T15:23:00.001+08:00

OMG, Spotted Sir Alex Fergie in Highland????!!!!!

2008-05-11T14:58:00.003+08:00

R.e.t.u.r.n. o.f. A. P.a.t.h.e.t.i.c. B.l.o.g.g.e.r.

Well, I know it has been long time ago since mah last update, I know I've abandoned "Eclipse of the Heart" since ages ago, I know I know, and all that I know is I NEED INSPIRATION!!

Does my name sound like Ninja? Am wondering.. (*u*)

2008-03-01T14:36:00.003+08:00

Life.Is.Like.A.Dream

"Tinggal dekat mana?"
"Pedas, Taman XXX"
"Oh, saya tinggal dekat sebelah saja, masam atau masin."
"........"

OMG, His lame-ness is, unbeatable.

2008-02-16T14:10:00.003+08:00

Reunion.... after those wearing days...

Went up to K.L during CNY.

To meet up with some of my uni-buddies, those we've been apart for quite some times.

It's nice seeing them again.

Not going to talk much bout the gathering since BadAcrix and BabyGPS have already done so.

A photo that I promised to put it up here- Mah-Seafood-Platter-Sharer

And..

our splendid seafood dinner..

Happie + Gong Xi + New Year

2008-02-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

Currently listening to:

Timbaland- Apologize

Colbie Caillat - Bubbly

Nice songs are to be shared. Aren't they?

With love,

Jia

2008-01-27T10:14:00.000+08:00

The old Lycantrope needs some anti-Parkinson medications.

.........................

2008-01-20T12:27:00.000+08:00

A.Needle.Stick.Injury

There is a big bruising on my left hand.

Why?

Becoz...

I kena cucuk by a 21G needle while preparing TPN (Total parenteral nutrition) bags in the TPN clean room.

Painful?

It's very very very painful definitely.

So, my colleague (the 'pencucuk' ^-^) decided to take me to I-Care to get some medical advices.

And a big misunderstanding actually happened here.

Me: Actually it's not a very serious matter, I was pricked by a needle but it's sterile.

Doctor: Any blood coming out?

Me: (I thought he was asking about the blood coming out from my hand, so i answered him...) Yes.

Doctor: Ok, I need to refer you to MOPD, you go and see Datuk XXX (a consultant of S'ban Hosp), he is in-charging of all this special case. And we need to monitor you for 6months.

Me: Is it that serious???? I thought it's jz a small matter??? The needle is sterile. (I repeated this again, in case he didnt hear me at the very beginning)

Doctor: Yes, we take it as a very serious matter. It might cause you problems, and it might not. We have our procedures, so we have to monitor you for 6months.

Me: The needle is sterile! Is it that serious??? (Haha..I know I am a bit over-reacted, but but but, is it that serious??? So I repeated this statement again and again.)

Doctor: Of course, got blood in the syringe rite?!

Me: No No, there's nothing in the syringe, it's a brand new and sterile syringe and needle.

Doctor: Oh, NO BLOOD IN THE SYRINGE...... okok, then we dont have to refer you to MOPD.

What a great relief....

So, I ended up....

being 'cucuk' again for the Inj Anti-Tetanus...

2008-01-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

GoGo Man Utd.

GoGo Ronaldo.

2008-01-10T13:54:00.000+08:00

I....

Miss my long hair...

Years ago, I always wanted to curl my long hair, coz im in love with....

curly hair.

But months ago...

I decided to cut my hair short.

After the very 1st try,

I went for a hair cut again few days before xmas. (Special thnks to ewen for teman-ing me).

This time,

it's not as short as last time,

and....

it's not as 'spiky' as last time.

.........................

2008-01-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

Mah 2008 wishes..

Im not a greedy girl, all I want to get for myself is just...

a Tag Heuer watch,
a MacBook Pro,
an iPhone,
a Condo unit with a nice golf course view,
and... a grand Piano.

Im not greedy, Am I? (but my pay is low, so sad....)

.........................................

1. I need to keep my promise, those promises that I have made but havent fulfilled.

2. I need to memorise the brand name, dose, indications, side effects and etc for all the drugs.

3. I need to start doing my PRP project.

4. I need to prepare myself for the coming chinese new year.

I need to, I need to, I need to...... Aiks, losta things are awaiting me.

But lazy girl is very happie with her current life. ^_^

Sayonara 2007

.
............

and HaPpiE 2008 YeAR to all my friends out there!

May everyone be blessed with losta love and happiness.

2008-01-05T13:54:00.000+08:00

Hello world.. the lazy yingjia is back..

What is friend??

Friend is...

when you are far far away and when loneliness penetrates every single cell of your body, they will text you and tell you wat are they doing to brighten up ur days...

Friend is...

when you cant join them for shopping, they will text you to tell you that your favourite shop is now having BIG BIG sales...

Friend is...

when you need to work in the very wonderful sunday morning, they will text you to tell you about their Sunday plan...

So....

this is so-called... TRUE FRIEND...

who always think of you when you cant join them for....

hang-ing out,

for...

lepak-ing,

for...

gossip-ing,

and for everything.....

Few months ago...

Few months later...

22 Dec 2007 12.38pm

Hahaha.. ng siau yong. im in kl d. goin 2 cut hair ltr. tml n mon go shopping shopping wit feli. wahahaha......

23 Dec 2007 8.57AM'

wahahahaha.. Forgot 2 reply u yest. aiks..2 busy shoppin d. hahahaha.. Bought a pair of shoe fr nose.. Ltr go mv pulak. Wahahahaha..'(while ng's doing sunday shift in hospital)

23 Dec 2007 9.28 AM'

Eh. i go the curve with my cousin first den after tat i meet u guys up in mv k. cya.

ooops. send 2 da wrong person..'(while ng's doing dispensing in hospital........:( ... )

------- THIS IS 'FREN' ! ------

2007-12-08T11:32:00.000+08:00

After those stormy and tired days, an update finally.. (Elaine, i think i update my blog more often than u now.. =p)

Warning: This is an emo post. For those who have hyperactive tear glands and for those who are currently in an emo+depress+gloomy+watever mood state, it's advisable stop browsing this page or skip the first part of the post. Thanks.

Chief complaints:
- Chest pain
- Decrease appetite
- Emo
- Dyspnea

Past Medical History:
- No known medical illness except for known Hyperactive tear glands

Past Medication History:
- Laughter and Happiness

Compliance to Medication:
- Well compliance but currently running out of medications

Review of system:
BP- 90/55mmHg (hypo)
PR- 66bpm, irregular
T- Afebrile
Reflo- 1.8 (hypo)

ECG: Surprisingly normal

Diagnosis: Heart failure due to excessive thinking and missing (workload)

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Im missing everyone of you, from the very bottom of my heart, -

I miss our back-packing trip.
I miss our gossip session.
I miss our sing-K session.
I miss our shopping time.

Im missing... Every.Single.Moment that we have been together.

How I wish I could reverse the time and go back to the past.
How I wish I could... and I know it's impossible.
So sad... (Tears of sadness are streaking down in my heart)

To all my frenz out there, a BIG THANK YOU to all of you for all the words of encouragement and for all the re-fuelling along the way.

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Okie, for the happie part, Im a wad round houseman pharmacist now.

Am enjoying very much during wad round session, and happily learning new stuffs everyday. Doctors are nice, specialist is nice, consultant is nice, my boss is nice, staff nurse are nice, patients are nice, everyone is just NICE. And im loving it! But little sad cause the very-super-extremely nice and caring doctor, who is previously in-charge of wad 5B has been rotated to other wad. I have never seen such a caring doctor.

Ohyah, forgot to mention, am attached to wad 5B, which is not a very hectic and busy wad if compared to wad 6A/B and 7A/B. So wad round session doesnt take much time since we have little patients here. Not much IMU medical students attach to this wad means Im able to stand beside doctors during wad round session and be able to listen to their discussion clearly. But im still sucks in everything, felt myself so stupid and useless cause I can never answer doctors' questions. Sigh..

Btw, I have never know doctor's working hours is sooooo freaking long and they need to work from Mon-Sun until I met one junior MO. To all the doctors, Tabit! ^-^

Photo.of.the.day

2007-11-18T09:39:00.000+08:00

Pa Rum Pa Pa Pum...

I want holiday! I want holiday!
Yet, I cant.

Back to the reality, forensic exam is coming soon,
wish and pray that everyone who sit for the exam can pass it easily.
People out there, gudluck in your exam!

One boring day in the office, I was so bored that I beg my colleagues to tell me some lame jokes. Life without laughter is nothing. So the very cuty YunMin told us one.

YunMin: Do you know why the colour of the sea is blue?
Me and others: (Scratching our head)

After few mins, "Erm, dunno wor"

YunMin: Okie, it's because of the fish. Try to imagine how fish breathe, "Bloop Bloop Bloop" = Blue

............................................ ^-^

Yeah, xmas is coming soon, hopefully we can meet up, k, all my frens out there.
Will try to fight for my leave.

2007-10-28T09:54:00.000+08:00

Impromptu thinking.

Am wondering why drugs in OPD cant be arranged in alphabetical order. Im missing the PP3 room in glasgow, where all the drugs are arranged nicely on the cabinet in alphabetical order. It really saves us a lot of times when looking for a drug prior to dispensing. I believe Im not the only one to say that working in OPD is hard when you still dunno exactly where the drug is. I tend to ask others when I cant find the drugs. In other words, I tend to disturb others. What's the point? We are there to help out, not to disturb others' work.

It's not a complaint, it's a suggestion instead. If they could re-arrange and re-place the drugs in alphabetical order, I believe things would be much more easier not only for us, PRP, but also for those pembantu pharmacist and FRP who are new to OPD.

Am I right?

Decided to post some photos here coz this blog is so bored, lack of updates plus it only consists of words. So bored. So sad.

Missing every one of you..

2007-10-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

Never ever say your patient knows the correct way of using inhaler. Because they never ever use the inhaler correctly.

Heard this from my colleague- LJ.

Story 1:

LJ: Uncle, do you know how to use this inhaler?
X: Yes, I have been using it for quite some times.
LJ: Uncle, can you pls show me how you use it?

Uncle X removed the inhaler (MDI) cap and placed it in his mouth, pressed the top of the inhaler and took the inhaler out while closing his mouth, then then then.......

he SWALLOWED the air in his mouth.

Story 2:

LJ: Uncle, do you know how to use this inhaler?
Y: Yes, I know since I have been using it for x years but each time when I use it, there's some 'smokes' coming out from the inhaler.
LJ: Uncle, can you pls show me how you use it usually?

Uncle Y removed the cap (MDI), breathe in, placed the inhaler in his mouth, started pressing the top of the inhaler while breathing out.

Guess what, LJ really noticed some 'smoke' coming out from the inhaler while uncle Y start breathing out.

Ahahahahahahahahaha.............. uncle ah uncle, the 'smoke' that come out from your inhaler is actually the medication that you need.

Okie, I dun mean to laugh at them but............. it's so funny that me and shiaw yoong cant stop laughing while listening to LJ.

So, dear doctors and pharmacists, pls do spare some times and reassess the way that your patient use an inhaler.

2007-10-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

Updates..finally..

Am working in the very super extremely CHUN Seremban hospital now, which department u may ask, and the answer is Farmasi Satelit. Huh, apa itu Farmasi Satelit? So basically, I just need to sit in the office goyang kaki and watch Astro. Nah... Tons of works are waiting for me.

Mah daily routine=

1. 8-9am (Mon-Fri) - Outpatient Department
2. 11am (Mon & Thurs) - Post-natal Dispensing
3. (Mon & Thurs) - Wad Inspection
4. In the office-
Filling pescription - 30/day
Counterchecking - 60/day
5. Bedside Dispensing
6. Clerk case- 20/month

Wad inspection and cleck case are the most tedious works. Why??

Long shirt + Long pant + Lab coat + got kipas equals to no kipas wad= arghh.....

And I wake up at 6.15am every morning and sleep at 9++pm every nite. Amazing isnt it!

Hope I can survive well.. And All the very best to all my frens out there.. cheers!!

2007-09-18T02:36:00.000+08:00

Yes, the template has been changed, dunno what had happened to the previous one, but this one is not gonna last long coz' im looking for a better template. I prefer the background of the layout is in white colour coz' pictures that I edited looked nicer and flawless in white colour layout.

Song of the day: 天天想你 by Mayday. (Mah favourite song ^-^)

.Nitez.

2007-09-17T01:14:00.000+08:00

Life.Is.... Like.A.Dream

And I wish.... I could never wake up

For Dream... Is too fragile to be touched

Whether or not the season is soon over

Whether or not the stars are shining bright

I could see the happie ending when the Sun climbs high

You used to be the sweet smile on my face

And used to be the reasons of my smile

So pour your smile on me

And let the happiness flying in the air.

Am wallowing in my own poetical wonderland. What to do. When the boundaries of boring-ness was pushed into the uncharted territory, millions or even billions of thoughts water my mind. If I could cut open my skull, I'll tell the cerebelum that He's on holiday. So that I can be a care-free, problem-free, emo-free, apa pun free person. Yet I know I cant.

Nitez.. my world.

2007-09-14T02:14:00.000+08:00

I shall save my happiness and excitement for tomorrow's Jacky Cheung's concert,

though Im not his SuperFans. ^-^

2007-09-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

Title of the day "Freedom and Boredom are only 2 words apart"

Arghh..... Anybody wanna offer me a ride to a place where I can SOL?? (SOL = shout out loud)

I know this is a boring blog and I once thought of closing it down but Dont think I will coz kind of 'bu she de'.

Statistic says "You only update ur blog [once or twice/ month]."

Readers say "Eh update ur blog la, no update ka, close it down nia."

and I say "I promise I'll try my best to keep running this blog and making it alive, but sometimes I really really dun have the mood for blogging." Guess I nid some antipsychotic drugs.

Nway, thanks to those who never give up on me and keep visiting my blog for updates (I wonder is there any). Thumbs up to u guys. ^-^

So what's been happening lately in my life?

Erm...nothing much. Eat, watch TV, read newspaper, on9, sleep, go out wit frens. An unproductive lifestyle, Im not gonna like it!!

And, i cut my hair short. How short? Very short, just try to imagine some short spikes at the top of my head. Yes, that's how I look like now. And it grew longer, guess I nid a hair cut again before I start working.

Speaking about working, went for the interview last week and am waiting for the posting. Lots of my frens have received their posting letter and some have even started working in hospital. And where is mine? Which hospital I'll get? Uncertainty.

Woke up this morning and found out that Im still missing UK, esp Glasgow- James Blyth Court.
I promise myself not to miss the comfortably cold weather.

I promise myself not to miss the super fast internet connection.

I promise myself not to miss the super busy shopping street.

I promise myself not to miss the gorgeous and alluring Barcelona.

I promise myself not to miss the heavenly made Fontana de Trevi.

I promise myself not to miss all my lovely frens.

I promise myself not to miss the life in UK.

I promise myself must keep these promises.

But I fail to do that.

Oh no. What an emo post. Haha.

2007-08-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

Yours truly, felicia chan... is here to.....
SPAM!!!! wakakaka

bet u will be this happy when u saw this post!!!
till then...enjoy~~

2007-08-25T12:25:00.000+08:00

Lame but Lovely

Tok Kok but Funnie

Noob but Happie

Interview on 4th of Sept... It's driving me crazy.

Instead of sending the SPM cert, i sent them my SPM result slip... Lagi driving me crazy.

Sigh...

"What A WONDERFUL Day"

2007-08-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

Way.Back.Into.Love.(.Music.and.Lyrics.)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Isnt it sounds jz...great??!! Music has alwayz been the elixir in re-juvenating and re-freshing my tired soul. And Im loving it..!

Yes, I know i've been slacking in blogging lately, becoz i found no reason in blogging. No complacence, no creativity, no inspiration. un-stimulating, dumb, monotonous, numb, and bla bla bla...

.Sien.I couldnt find any better word to describe my current life.A girl who loves being around lame peoples, and loves to tok kok, is trying her best to adapt her current life.Cacat not.Yes Im.Retarded not.Yes it is.

2007-07-26T17:09:00.000+08:00

Beautiful dawn
Lights up the shore for me
There is nothing else in the world
I'd rather wake up and see (with you)

Beautiful dawn - I'm just chasing time again
Thought I would die a lonely man
In endless night

But now I'm high
Running wild among all the stars above
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

Beautiful dawn
Melt with the stars again
Do you remember the day when my journey began?
Will you remember the end (of time)?

Beautiful dawn
You're just blowing my mind again
Thought I was born to endless night
Until you shine

High
Running wild among all the stars above
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me
Will you be my shoulder when I'm grey and older?
Promise me tomorrow starts with you
Getting high
Running wild among all the stars above
Sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

Will I be forgotten and never brought to mind? I'm drowning in my own emo-ness again. Am flying back home soon, wish me have a safe journey back please.

With luv.
Nooby Jia

2007-07-24T09:02:00.000+08:00

It's.Time.To.Leave...

my comfort zone.and back to the country where i have been living for more than 20years.back to a place where i will no longer be pampered like a small kid.it's gonna be a brand new start and a brand new life.all by myself.im scared.scared of the renewed sense of friends and commitment that will come upon me.i know this is life.

i love the place where i was born.and i know im gonna miss here.for every little single thing that holds a place in my memories.i hate sweating profusely while walking on the street.and i hate the unbearable heat and rays of sun kissing my skin.i luv the comfortably cold weather.i wish i could smell the last traces of serene summer.and welcome the first drop of snow during winter.melancholy thursday.

to my friends.i appreciate every litte single thing that they did for me.it's not just the big things.but the small gestures that retain in my memories.and will hold close to my heart.be remembered.and be sealed in a precious velvet bag.for our friendship is very precious.it will never fade away.not the souvenirs that you gave me.but the joys and the fun we've shared together.and the smile that you've created.life is sweet.

shall all my unspoken thoughts be listened.and be answered.im drowning in my own emo-ness.my love and prayers to my family and all my frens out there.

2007-07-17T03:34:00.000+08:00

..Kiss the Sun..

2007-07-13T03:23:00.000+08:00

Proudly present to you.. The Most Popular Girl of The Year..

She is sooo..... hawt!!!

2007-05-31T05:23:00.000+08:00

A.Story.To.Share.

I know this story might be too long but spare me some times and u will find that it's worth reading it. ^-^

Elderly Chinese Woman With Two Large Pots

An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole,which she carried across her neck.One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water, at the end of the long walk from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrivedonly half full.

For a full two years this went on daily,with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water. Of course,the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection,and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do.

After 2 years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. “I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house.”The old woman smiled, “Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot’s side?” “That’s because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house.”

Each of us has our own unique flaw. But it’s the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You’ve jus tgot to take each person for what they are and look for the good in them.

SO, to all of my crackpot friends, have a great day and remember to smell the flowers on your side of the path!

Taken from KhaiYong's blog.

2007-05-22T10:13:00.000+08:00

Yes, I know this blog has been abandoned for some times. This is simply because the true owner of this blog, yeah, it's me, has bitten by some kinds of bugs named laziness. Ok, kind of lame, i know, forget about it. Will be moving to the new apartments on 2nd of June, yet lots of packing and cleaning are awaiting me.

Finally finished the Japanese series- One.Litre.Of.Tears aka Ichi Rittoru no Namida yesterday night. Wat??! Japanese drama again??!! A fren of mine said that japanese drama is gay because they cry alots. Haha.. I agreed but this series is soooooooooo touching and im loving it. I cried in almost every epi. :p The series is based on a true story where a 15-year-old girl, Aya Ikeuchi has a kind of weird disease named Spinocerebellar atrophy (degeneration of the cerebellum and so the patient will find difficulty in performing daily simple tasks such as walking, writing, talking and swallowing) and knowing that there's currently no cure for it, yet she never gives up. Click on the link below for the full series.

One Litre of Tears

And there's a special edition of this series which is only a 3hours show. Click on the link below for the special edition.

One Litre of Tears Special Edition

And this is the theme song by K- Only Human.

Miss Malaysia World 2007 Finalists is out and you can even vote for your choice of miss malaysia here. Yes, it is totally not related to me, i know, and not that i contribute a vote will bring me closer to the path where i will be able to take part in that competition, but who cares... :p

Splendiferous yet mundane...

2007-03-31T07:02:00.000+08:00

Some.photos.to.share

guys, wanna learn how to act cute? ask him- BadAcrix Hwayobi

erm, how bout his group members, GPS and LYW?

she looked so.. ahem.. "kai fang"

She must be thinking of someone.. oopss..

foo's trademark. p/s ahfoo, u looked so "miang".. haha.. really had a gud laugh at it!

the very professional model-NG... and...

a very typical poser-FC

and Last But Not Least..

Have a nice day!

2007-03-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

Konnichiwa. Watashi wa YingJia desu. Douzo yoroshiku.

The camera-man and his 3 models.

Hi guys, this is my second post after a long hibernating period. As metioned earlier, i (we, in fact. dun tell me u have finished doing ur research project and clinical attachmemt presentation, as well as the PDP or else i'll be xin li bu ping heng) got so much things to do, yet so little time to complete it.

However....Guess wat i did for the past few weeks..
My life seems to have become quite, in fact very interesting recently, becoz... i went for pool session, i went to the dance performance, i go for work, i do my homework, i watch movie, i go for swimming (waiting for jouAnn), n planning to go for basketball n badminton playing session. Im actually amazed at my endurance and perseverance, becoz i dun have neither. *cough*

Mother-and-daughter
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My favourite song by Namie Amuro and ayumi. Enjoy.

2007-03-01T06:35:00.000+08:00

IM.Back.Guys.

Been seriously slacking in blogging recently. This is becoz there are so much things to do, yet so little time to accomplish each task.

And... silence is ended...
After struggling for xx weeks, xx hours, xx minutes, and xx seconds, im bck finally, bck to the world where im suppose to be. ^-^

...

...

...

Behold, my recent-artwork. (Thanks ya, ahfoo)

*Happy new year*

2007-02-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

I say downstairs!!!!!

2007-01-21T06:56:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year is COMING SOOooooonnnn!!! >_<

cant' wait

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another photo taken in Firenze- Italy, (of coz by AhFoo as well). sorry for mentioning this again but.. no choice, dun wanna get into trouble of the copyright matter.. ^-^ while waiting...

and finally, here it comes... debunked.

2007-01-14T07:44:00.000+08:00

the.symphony.of.arts

here are some pictures taken (of coz by our "super dim" well-known photographer- AhFoo) in Italy. It's my endeavours in editing the pictures with my limited knowledge and amateurish skills.and of coz critique and comments are alwaz welcomed.

my corner of victory.

it's not a covetous desire.is it not? i have alwaz wanted to learn how to produce good pieces of pictures by using Photoshop but im running out of inspirations to tickle my senses of creativity.

mundane.piece.of.work

yjia :] gudnite..

2007-01-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

Updates?? Finally...

Well, this is my 1st post in 2007 though i noe it's already 8days passed. Im jz too lazy in blogging recently, or perhaps I shud say, my inspiration and creativity are all gone, leaving behind a dead soul. I noe I can post bout my Italy trip but I jz dun feel like doin so becoz my creative soul is withering... so im not going to post the Italy pics here till I found my creativity and the complacence in editing pics.

arghhh....................

This is wat we did in 2006..

I miss those times... dear frens, thanks for being wit me at various points along the long journey..

... and this is specially dedicated to my ex-hsemates..
Cheong Hua Ying, see how barbaric u are..

By chance, i found a beautiful painting on9. Im so so jealous of those who study arts,

arghhh............

i wan to draw pieces of fantastic arts too,
i wan to create awesome paitings too..
i wan...
i wan..

okie, gonna go for lab soon, tata and have a nice day.. ^-^

2007-01-01T06:57:00.000+08:00

2006 is gonna end soon..

2007 is landing in about 5mins...

old gives way to new...

when the crossroad in life descends...

when a new path unfolds...

when decision have to be made...

when sacrifices have to be done...

when time slips thru finger tips...

when hopes vanish..

when disappointment climbs to its max...

when a new life is reborn...

when...

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A very Happy New Year to all my frens, my family, and everyone in the world...

lots of love,

yjia...

2006-12-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

I havent been updated my blog for ages becoz im too lazy to do that, and when I finally managed to drag myself out from the bed, my mind went blank. Not enough sleep? No. Hungry? No. Depress? No. Stress? No. ..Unknown reason.. Guess my mind is going for hibernation soon. o_O

Perhaps I shud summon the past, gather it, forgive it, and let it be washed away from my heart. There r sins we committed which at most of the time, we dun have the courage to face it. They r irrevocably and they r past, there is no use holding it close to ur heart and letting it grow deeper and deeper. Time is the greatest gift tat God can ever give to a human being, and forgiveness is the greatest gift tat one can ever give to another.

As usual, my stomach woke me up this morning. Im looking forward to this coming morning since yesterday, I pray that the parcelforce ppl have sent out my pick up letter and pray that it will reach me by today. Yet, disappointment seems to dominate my life. Life is a journey to happiness?? Nah, rather it's a journey to disappointment. Mama sent me a parcel few weeks ago and unfortunately, I was not at home when they were here to deliver it. Few days past and worries started to intrude every single cell of my body. So I checked on9 thru parcelforce.com and finally found out that my parcel is placed in High Street post office. (Thanks yin er for telling me this)

.:*Happy*:.
I went to the post office to collect it. I told the staff there that Im here to collect my parcel. As usual, he asked for the pick up letter and I told him I dun have. Wait, let me clarify something, it's not me who lost the card, it's the fella who deliver the parcel to my hse didnt leave any card for me. So, they asked me to contact the parcelforce ppl to "re-send" the card. In the end, I went home wit nothing. Next, wat I have to do is call the parcelforce company for the pick up card and yes, I did. (actually it was feli who called for me) Surprisingly, the parcelforce ppl said I only nid to bring any statement wit my name and address on it to the post office will do. So, again, I went to the post office wit my student ID and bank statement.

Me : I called the parcelforce company jz now and they said I only nid to bring these to prove tat im the owner of the parcel.

Stupid-stubborn-fella : (in a monotonous tone) no, i cant give u ur parcel, i dunno wat the parcelforce ppl told u, u might hear wrongly, u must get ur pick up letter b4 u got bck ur parcel. our system is different from parcelforce system.... (and blah blah blah blah)...

Me : (wtf) thanks..

The more i thought of it the more pissed i got. So I went to look for help from village office (VO). Im touched by their enthusiasm in helping ppl, it's sooooooooo warm... A big applause to VO... A young lady called to the post office with the hope tat they will gimme bck my parcel but they insist for the card b4 giving out any parcel to the owner. So, the young lady called to the parcelforce company and asked them to send me the card. And now, im waiting for my card so tat i can collect my parcel asap and off for my xmas holz. Im pathetic, sad sad little girl..

VO rocks!! Although the small things the young lady did for me would not amount to anything of great consequence to me, thousand thanks to her, she made me feel warm in this cold winter season, she is the beacon when im lost. THANKS SO MUCH FOR UR KINDNESS. O_o

Human mind is great. Yet it's unpredictable, unapproachable. It's complicated and unfathomable. Our emotions' spectrum can run from one far end to the other. It's like a swinging of a pendulum...... I felt so angry when I was on my way to VO but I felt pretty happy and ease while on my way bck home. This is so-called emotion.

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Exam is over finally and this signals the beginning of our xmas holz.

Hohoho... santa claus is coming to townnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn...............

Went for a movie named The Holiday 2days ago with Feli, Jou Ann, Joe, Soh, and Kelvin. It's a romantic comedy casted by Cameron Diaz, Kate Winslet, Jude Law and Jack Black. It's all about love affairs of two ladies when they decided for a home exchange during the xmas break. Miles (Jack Black) is a film composer and I like the way he plays piano. I use to envy ppl who can compose symphonies, write songs, create music, I wish I could be the melody and the piano's notes, to make up for the every sadness in my life. My passion for arts and music will never wither.

.:*I promise*:.

2006-11-30T02:21:00.000+08:00

Beautiful day by Ayumi...

Arena 2006 concert O_o

Ayumi Rocks!!!!

私達が明日に怯えるのは,
まだ見ぬものが不安で仕方ないからで,
ももしもわかりきった明日が,
やって來たならつまらなすぎる,
そうでしょ?

Quote of the day: *Watashi tachi ga asu ni obieru no wa
Mada minu mono ga fuan de shikata nai kara
Demo moshimo wakari kitta asu ga
Yatte kita nara tsumarana sugiru
Sou de sho?*

We scare of tomorrow
Becoz we are so anxious about what we haven't seen
But if tomorrow is too obvious to see
It's too boring
Don't you think so?

2006-11-28T09:55:00.000+08:00

Finally, everything is done... Intro.. Pharm Care Presentation...

* Wat a relief*........

Been seriously slacking in blogging. Why? Becoz im Sick.. im so sick tat i only managed to eat porridge over the past few days. it started with fever, and when sore throat, cold, and headache came along to accompany, i was about to fin my Panadol ActiFast- 10panadols within 9days berturut-turut, ..bloody hell!! Without it, im nothing. think im addicted to it, pls, i dun wanna get liver damage at this very young age.

Thanks acrix for the ayumi latest album- Secret. Love the cd cover, it's so... *(undescribable)*.. she looks so gorgeous..

for no reason, i love ayumi songs.. *music is the best elixir to a tired soul* , and so, ayumi songs are the best elixir to mine..

Recommended= Jewel click here and Born to be
Heaven click here is another nice song tat im currently listen to.

9days left... xmas coming soon? yes, but not for dis.. 9more days to go for the drug discovery exam and it contributes 50% to the final exam. so, xmas celebration is in the air, as well as Exam Stress..

Happy studying boys and girls

and

lets pray that v'll be celebrating a white xams dis year.

2006-11-18T04:22:00.000+08:00

I think it's time for me to post some entries here before blogger close it down as Im too inactive in blogging recently. This blog is not dead, hmm.... it is just temporarily being abandoned. Been busy with clinical attachment presentation and research project.

Im planning to give my blog a fresh look but I nid someone who is kind enuf to help me in designing a flash template for my blog or u can instruct me step by step thru' MSN, post a comment here, leave ur msg in my chatterbox, etc etc... I did try my luck in searching for some flash templates offered by other sites but most of them are not free. O_o My dearest thanks to those who gimme their thoughts on how to increase the readership. Life is so wonderful.. o_O

Thanks ^-^

2006-11-05T07:26:00.000+08:00

Was working at Celtic this afternoon, and was assigned to Kiosk S6. My request to switch to Kiosk S5, where I have been comfortably working in for so many times, failed. BIAS! RACISM! Im sure if I were the ang mo and my request will just be approved by them easily or if I were to ask Elizabeth, she will probably say yes. Ok, fine, I follow ur rules then. Was working with Yuan Qi in the same Kiosk, under the supervision of a middle-age lady.

Well, speaking of the middle-age supervisor, the more I thought of it the more pissed I got. I know I have no excellent cooking skills, but at least I will take out the hotdog from the plastic packing before I put it in the oven. Guess wat this lady did, I was shocked when I saw it. She cooked the hotdogs together with the plastic packaging, yes, which means it's in its ORIGINAL PACKING. WALAU WEI, did she know the plastic bag is so so toxic tat can even kill a person over time.. Next, she put all the boxes on the floor (which is very dirty) and she told me to wipe the rack with disinfectant, when I was done, she put all the boxes (where previously she put them on the floor) back onto the CLEAN rack. OMG, so wat's the point she ordered me to do tat? Did she know the bacteria will stick onto the bottom of the boxes and contaminate the places where I had cleaned. It's ridiculous.

There are lots more to say but im too lazy to write at this moment, gonna sleep soon. Will try to upload more pics in the upcoming post and am thinking some ways to increase my blog's readership. Update me if you know any?

zzzzzzzz................ 0_0

2006-11-01T02:14:00.000+08:00

<--- My 25 hours birthday with my Unspoken Wish--->

Current mood; pretty happy+exhausted, la la la..... nevertheless, it's quite hard to judge or rate the mood soemtimes, u could be happy at dis moment and beautifully melancholic at the next moment.

Currently listening to; Jacky Cheung 2004 Concert

Time was set bck an hour on the 29th Oct and this signalled the end of British Summer Time. So, this means I have an hour extra for my birthday. Cool man, 25hours birthday... U got? No leh..

Celebrated my birthday wit Feli, Jou Ann, Jiet Hui, Siau Yong, Yee Wen, and Pei Sung last fri nite. Got a handmake birthday cake and a MNG belt as the present. Cant wait for the rest of the world to know I have a bunch of sweet and nice housemates... Thanks for the present and ordinary but tasty birthday cake. Finger lickin' good!!!! Bravo.

..Happy Birthday to all the people who were born in the sweet October.. Yu Jun, Wei Ying, Ju Yen, Yoke Ching, Ah Soh, William, Yoong Kian, and ME.. OCTOBER ROCKS!!!!

It's been a long time since I drew anything, the above birthday cake is my recently "artpiece" since the photos are not wit me yet.

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Have u heard bout TinTin comic?

*Joke of the day*

Happy Halloween!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-21T07:21:00.000+08:00

Gosh...

Have been on Chlorphenamine for 3days but it seems not working very well in my body to relieve the symptoms that im currently suffering from. Rashes all over the body... legs, hands, n neck, sleep disturbances due to itchiness... Arghh.....

Im going crazy because of you; Itchiness!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-19T08:10:00.000+08:00

My New Medications

1. Chlorphenamine 4mg tablets (2weeks course)
- symptomatic relief of allergy; emergency treatment of anaphylactic reactions

Side effects- As indicated in BNF, drowsiness and headache, and yes, im currently suffering form these two side effects....

2. DiproBase Cream (emollients)
- Soothe, smooth and hydrate the skin

3. Duac Once Daily Gel (Clindamycin Phosphate 1%w/w)
- topical treatment for acne

2006-10-08T06:15:00.000+08:00

<----Updates---->

It's drizzling outside, bcked from work few hours ago, totally exhausted and feels so pain on my leg, u know, it's the pain that is pricking the nerve, NO PAINS, NO GAINS???? Oh dear oh dear, shud get myself a new pair of black shoes sooner or later. I want a NICE AND COMFORTABLE AND CHEAP black shoes!!!!

Speaking bout the work, I did manage to watch the 1st half of the today's match: Scotland vs France for the 1st time in my life. I had watched so many football games on TV, but I hadnt actually watched any of the games at so close distance. Surprisingly, Scotland won for the game with score 1-0. In order to qualify themselves for the UEFA EURO CUP, the team of Scotland had given their best last shot during the game and no matter how hard Henry, the striker of France, in trying to bring the scores even/more from 1-0, they're still lost in this game. Arent they had many scoring chances during the 1st half and the 2nd half? By judging from the past victories of the France, I have been wondering what makes the Scotland team to be so outstanding and being able to gain the astounding victory in this game. Speaking in terms of qualities of the players, I thought the players for France are so fantastic. Arent they? Hopefully in the upcoming matches, France players will be able to show off their brilliant skills and being able to play in the Euro Cup.

Scotland players;

1. Gordon

2. Dailly

3. Pressley

4. Weir

5. Graham Alexander

6. Fletcher

7. Ferguson

8. Caldwell (Goal)

9. Hartley

10. McCulloch

11. McFadden

France players;

1. Coupet

2. Abidal

3. Thuram

4. Boumsong

5. Sagnol

6. Ribery

7. Vieira

8. Makelele

9. Malouda

10. Trezeguet

11. Henry

Been experiencing quite a windy+freaking cold weather lately, the mercury seems to stay comfortably at one place and no matter how high the sun climbs, the temperature remains relentlessly low. The air is incredibly dry and while walking on the street against the wind, my eyes feel pretty dry and this make me very uncomfortable. It's autumn, yes, mark you, AUTUMN.. and how am I going to survive during winter??? Ooops... I shouldnt complain too much or else I;ll be asked TO STAY AT HOME.

2006-09-30T03:21:00.000+08:00

Went out for dinner last week and me, feli and jou ann came across this topic while enjoying our roasted chicken at Counting House.

Me: Hahaha, why we called Manchester City as Man Utd last time ar...

Jou Ann: Yala, when I told my fren I wanna go Man Utd, he was like har??.... Make me paiseh..

Feli: Hahaha...

Jou Ann; u know last time when I was Form 3, I told my fren Switzerland is located in Aust?

Me; har!!!!!!!!!!! (speechless)

Feli; hahaha, I once mistaken New Zealand and Aust are located on the same main land. (in fact, these 2 countries are two isolated islands)

Me; (lagi speechless)

Me; Why they wanna called Man City as Man city, but not Man Utd instead?

Feli; becoz Man Utd is a football team...

Me; yaya, I know, but why dont they called Man City as Man Utd coz Man Utd= unite all the places in Manchester ar. For example, we called England as United Kingdom.. and the same

theory applies here.

Jou Ann; har????......

*Cold* Okok, enuf for the joke... Enjoy the photos and have a nice day.. ^-^

Ok, the 3photos below are the culprits. We (me, jou ann, feli and foo) accidentally walked past this staircase and found tat it's nice taking photo here, so, we requested Ah Foo to take for us since he is the only one with the camera. And you know lar, girls mar, so, we spent quite some times here and in fact, we were running out of time for other exhibitions. Foo claimed; A staircase can kill my camera's memory.

Staircase that connected lower ground floor, where the entrance into this museum is located here, and ground floor.

A masterpiece of Michelangelo- The Dying Slave.
"Michelangelo could see angel on the plain marbles. W/o his intelligent carving, the angel would never see the light of the day."

Photo shooting of a new model??

St Mary Magdalene

Mona Lisa by Leonardo de Vinci. In fact, here is a No Camera section in order to preserve the works of art which have survived in spite of at time venomous attacks.

Napoleon III Apartments which is located at the 1st floor of the museum.

The nite view of Museum de Louvre. These are all the photos taken by Foo.
The Louvre Museum is one of the greatest art museum in the world. It's divided into 3 wings, named, Richelieu, Sully, and Denon. So for those who are interested to visit this monument, ARE YOU READY TO DISCOVER THE SECRET? Let urself experience the thrill and intrigue of the gripping murder mystery like never before.The journey is now begun...

2006-09-29T03:16:00.000+08:00

It's always hard for me to wake up early in the morning, i hate morning lectures which make me bored and feel sleepy. Having lectures the whole day with 1 hour break in between each lecture is a torture instead. I prefer previous timetable where all the lectures were taught in the morning and I could enjoy my nap in the afternoon. Complaint, complaint, and complaint again.... Ppl like me use to complain anything which I dont think it's in its best way. Dont get me wrong, Im neither choosy nor shrew, we have the right to voice out our opinions, arent we?

No hot water again?? Tunggu apa lagi? Complaint!! I have no idea why this matter happens quite often, esp when the weather is cold. Well, u wont face dis kind of prob at home unless ur heater is OOO (out of order). Arghhh.. miss home so much, I dont know why I've such a nostalgia feeling, is this called MISSING?? If it is, I hope and I pray tat everyone will be happy always.

Mum and Dad, here's a special little corner for you, to tell you how much I miss you, thanks for the endless love and caring which you relentlessly flooded me, thanks for letting me move on peacefully and happily. Thanks for everything, I Love You and take care.. ^-^

Some photos taken during Paris trip, enjoy. Will try to upload more photos in the upcoming post.

Dinner at restaurant nearby the hotel where we stay

The Paris Conquer Group

The city of Romantic

2006-09-18T05:28:00.000+08:00

<---- The jigsaw puzzle of PARIS ---->

Im back. Here are some of the photos taken in Paris. Enjoy.

A self-taken photo in hotel while on our way out to dinner after a long journey from Pestwick Airport.

Feli, this is specially for you since your face doesnt appear in the similar pic in Foo's blog. So pls dun "xin1 li3 bu4 ping2 heng2", k.

A church in Hotel des Invalides. Love its swanky architecture and the environment here is enveloped in an aura of peace and tranquility.

Praying? In fact, we were jz acting.. hehe..

Amy- Eiffel tower, the nite view from here is petty nice.

Another piece of me. The romantic of Eiffel Tower is powered by its flashing lights at nite and this makes it a beacon in the Paris' nite sky.

Breakfast in MacDonal before heading towards our destination- Academie Nationale de Musique (if im not mistaken)

A day in Disneyland. It's really worth though the entrance ticket is quite expensive, which costs 53 euro. Chicken Little, Snow White, Beauty and the Beast, and etc etc.. A place to pursue your childhood dream.

Home sweet home..

2006-09-18T03:09:00.000+08:00

<----My emotional tapestry---->

As you grow older, your perception of things has begun to change. The world is fulled of hardships and challenges. One day, you'll find urself sitting quietly in a little corner, trying to escape from the harder realities of the world. Isn't it true? Ok, at least for me, it's so true. I hope I could wrapped myself snugly in a cocoon of romantic and wondeful dreams where only happiness fill up every beat of my heart. But the realities turn out to be in a different way where resentment, bitterness, anger, guilty... are always by your side when the journey unfold.

New semester will be starting soon and I have made up my mind to reset everything to zero. A new life is born. With a renewed sense of commitment, I truly hope that things sail smoothly. It's like planting a seed and letting it grow.

Dear friends; Let us embrace our future with an enthusiastic heart and let the spirit from heaven guides us when the journey unfold.

Let everything that has been unhappy, end by us.

Quote of the day; Cherish the present moment even if you're uncertain where you're going for you'll have no regrets in your life.

Upcoming post; Photos taken in Paris...

2006-09-17T05:38:00.000+08:00

Yah, I've changed my blog skin again. Again? Yes, again.. Season is switching, so well as my blog skin..

Autumn has come, summer has slipped away silently, uni will be re-opened on the 22nd- the coming friday. Went to Paris during the "summer holiday", it's OUR summer holiday right??!! And am thankful to Foo for organizing such a nice trip. ;p Well, everyone was happily burning their Euro there, shirts, souvenir, chocolates, etc etc... Paris is sorta like a shopping heave, so, here's a little tips for those who plan to go paris during next holiday, do carry a big enuf bckpack wit u or else u'll be having lots of prob while packing ur already bought souvenirs on the last day of ur trip..

Ah Foo, our tour guide, here's a special little corner for u, to thank you for being such a wonderful tour guide, a big applause.. Went to lots of places such as Eiffel Tower, Disneyland, Arc de Triomphe, Moulin Rouge, Nortre- Dame.... cant remember all the names at once, but Im very certain that v had visited the Top 10 places in Paris. Why? Ask Foo.

Another tips for those who wanna go Paris next time, do go Eiffel Tower during nite time, trust me, it's kinda cool, at least for me, the most beautiful nite scene i've ever seen in my entire life!! The view from top of Eiffel was breathtaking.

Pic is worth more than a thousand words. Dont you agree wit me?

More pic coming soon. Do drop by at Foo for further info. Cheers *-*

2006-09-14T06:36:00.000+08:00

Dead?!

Yes, it's freaking dead..

Just bck from Paris few days ago. Will be updating it asap, i hope...

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Bought myself a shirt.

2006-09-04T05:47:00.000+08:00

Current music; Angel- Robbie Williams. Current status; super/extremely/very/pretty exhausted. Current mood; excited though.

I sit and wait

does an angel contemplate my fate

and do they know

the places where we go

when we´re grey and old

´cos I´ve been told that salvation lets their wings unfold

so when I’m lying in my bed

thoughts running through my head

and I feel that love is dead

I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

Have been working past two days, day 1; Hampdern Park- 1st day of Robbie's concert. day 2; Celtic Park in the afternoon and Hampdern Park in the evening- 2nd and last day of Robbie's concert. ppl were packed like sardine in the Hampdern Park, and it was estimated to have 57thousand ppl for this concert. Gosh!

Day 1; holding a till worker position, know nothing, led by a cool plus emotionless supervisor, though i like his beckham's hair style, no break, no dinner, ftw... luckily things sailed smoothly wit the help from abby and aaron. Thanks ya buddies...

Day 2; Till worker again in celtic park.. sigh* Im too tired to write much bout my work at the moment . Will not be able to update my blog next few days, will be going to Paris soon. Wohoo... wat a wonderful holiday...I like it*

2006-08-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ME?????????? IT'S SO EMBARRASSING!!!!!

Am i a pharmacy student?? Stupidity is revealed in the end.. How are u, as a pharmacist, going to deal wit a case where a customer come into ur phamarcy and claims tat his/her kid is having itchiness at the bottom wit white thread in the stools?

Dont tell me u'r gonna give nothing but to advise him/her to bring his/her kid to GP, plus some advices such as practice a good hygiene and clean the bottom very frequent to get rid of tat itchiness!!!!!!!!!

OMG... and yes, I did it. Dont ask me why. It's so embarrassing..
Lifetime trepidation instead...

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Proud of u, SIAU YONG... And congratulations to those who is exempted too..

PP3 exemption candidates' list was out finally, and at the same time, lots of cracking sounds floating in the air, hopes were finally dashed. I felt and i strongly believe tat everyone is striving so hard for it and all of the members of P104 were putting even more of their effort in this module.

To all my classmates; GAMBATEH!!! P104 ROCKS!!!

Stupid stupid stupid blank label,

No patient's name and date of supply on label = ILLEGAL SUPPLY???

I dont know, dont ask me why..

Heart somersaults painfully when saw the prescriptions..

But wat's the most painful was I realised this mistake during the exam, instead of putting a late entry, i tried to ignore it as i thought it's a minor mistake, and hitherto, Im still stongly believe tat as long as I can confirm the identity of tat patient, whom im supplying the medicine to, im not conducting an illegal supply. Am I?

Was on the verge of tears and have been trying so hard to hold bck tears but it jz welled up in eyes within a few seconds.

Burst into tears finally... *tears is a useful soothing tool in rejuvenating soul* ;p

Really have an urge to hug Jullian Johnson and cried as loud as I could during the feedback session..

Watever.. Gonna prepare for the PP3 degree exam mood soon..

OMG, only realised nid to complete 5 questions for FMT1 degree exam when everything is overed...
Instead of doing 5, i only did 4!!!!
How? Am i going to pass?

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2006-08-11T05:26:00.000+08:00

What a "whirlwind" life!!!!!! A weary soul is sitting in front of her table and studying and listening to songs... Stress, PP3 exemption test, video exam, FMT 1&2, PP3 degree exam... Current mood status; STRESS STRESS STRESS!! normally ppl wont do well when they'r under stress.. and of coz, me too. Life seems so hard for me recently, and i strongly felt tat im not the first one to say it, i felt it just as strongly as everyone else does, insipid, boring, colourless, monotonous... no entertainment, no outing, no more korean drama, and etc etc etc.. it's an "exquisite pain" indeed... *sigh*

Wat an amazing and great job tat photoshop can offer you!!! gratifying, lovely, flawless, pure, faultless pics... and etc etc etc... So just play around wit ur photoshop when u'r bored and have fun... Speaking of photoshop, i know i've limited knowledge and amateurish ability in this field, so still nid to familiarize myself wit photoshop work in future. I dread my future, who knows i failed to graduate as a phamarcist or my name will be strike off due to an illegal supply one day...nobody knows...

Wat kind of girl im? wat role tat im currently playing in this world? A daughter of my daddy and mummy? A sister of my brother? Im NOT soft-spoken, not genteel, not glamour, use to fool around wit a bunch of frens, maturity havent struck my soul , yet i LOVE this kind of life, it's so real and so comfortable.. *Muaksssssssssssssssssssssss* So, pls dun grab them away..

2006-08-08T00:34:00.000+08:00

KOREAN DRAMA, im hooked on it, there is no single reason behind it. It has brought me intense pleasure, sadness, and they'r all undescribable. Back in those days when i was still wearing those kind of secondary school uniform, i used to sit in front of the TV and enjoyed watching korean drama, fascinated at the sweet and nice but sad and melancholy plot, lost in the world of imagination, thinking tat wat if i was living in fairy tale and i might be a princess, waiting for my Mr. Prince, and majestic palace, and bla bla bla...

"hey, wake up!!!!!!!!!!!"

Well, real life turns out to be in a different way, PP3 exemption test is coming soon, as well as both the FMT 1 & 2 degree exam. Why our life is fulled of so much obstacles??? Approximately 3 more weeks to go to finish our 1st sem in glasgow and this means i'll have lesser time to study for degree exam, OH NO, pls give me strength or else u'll see me busy packing my stuffs and say bye bye to James Blyth Court. *Sigh* Should I jz marry to a korean guy and spend the rest of my life in korea by pampering my children and giving all my times to those heavy houseworks? Or should I jz sitting here and waiting for God to decide my destiny?

Watever, gonna study soon but the will for watching korean drama is growing stronger, wat to do??

2006-08-07T02:46:00.000+08:00

<------Im so SICK ....------>

Im so sick, sick of korean drama lately, been addicted to it and cant be separated from it at the moment, would the condition getting worse? Dunno. Im hooked. Highly recommend these two dramas; Goong aka Palace and My Girl. Never like sad ending drama and luckily, these two turn out to be happy ending.

What's Goong? This drama is all about the story of ChaeGyung through her struggles with finding out she's been arranged to marry the crown Prince of Korea, Lee Shin, and how she adjusts to the demands of her position and her growing feelings of love and hate for the prince.

"the more i comfort myself, the more i cry;

even if i rub away those tears secretly;

the memories spreading to other memories;

making me cry with pain"

Here are some pic (Goong), enjoy;

(My Girl);

My Girl is casted by Lee Dong Wook and Lee Da-hae. It's another love story where Gong Chan (Dong Wook) meets a bouncy and energetic girl, Yoo Rin (Da-hae), who closely resembles his aunty, who died in Japan due to earthquake. And Gong Chan's cousin sister's lives has become a mystery. Thus, Gong Chan's grandpa swears to find his granddaughter before it's too late. In order to appease his grandpa, Gong Chan has come to a crazy idea where he asks Yoo Rin to pretend to be his cousin sister, and thus, here starts a tangled relationship between the two. The plot is nice and sweet.

Another reason why im falling for this drama is because the protagonist closely resembles someone. Nway, let fate decides everything...

Quote of the day; Nothing is impossible BUT the probability of that possible is so insignificant...

2006-07-29T04:48:00.000+08:00

<------ Joke of the Day ------>

2006-07-27T19:01:00.000+08:00

Some of the pic taken during the last day of sterile lab. Our group members consist of Joe-the Quah, Philip-the Siao, Chin Yee-the..., Yin Ting, me and not to forget, Yin er, the most efficient and rajin one.. Pity her for joining our group, it's an odd combination where 1 rajin vs 5 "lazybones".. ;p

2006-07-26T18:09:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-23T06:49:00.000+08:00

<------All bout Nakata Hidetoshi------>

NAKATA Hidetoshi, 中田英寿, the midfielder of Japan Team, who has also played for Perugia, As Roma, Fiorentina and Parma in Italy, announced his retirement from football world following Japan's exit from the World Cup finals in Germany in July 2006, wit no single reason behind his decision. Nakata, a guy wit number 7, a guy wit mind filled wit nothing but the thought of scoring, he lives, n he breaths the game. It's a great lost in the football world following his retirement, indeed. Sigh...

2006-07-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-20T07:45:00.000+08:00

jOu aNN (dis is specially for u)

Me n jou Ann

Feli, JOu anN, n me

feLi

2006-07-19T05:59:00.000+08:00

2006-07-19T05:38:00.000+08:00

2006-07-19T04:20:00.000+08:00

__________SHaDow In tHe NigHt_____________

So NeaR, caNt ToucH...

sO Real, caNt caTcH...

sO inTenSe...

sO...

2006-07-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

Our 1st STERILE class; dressed like midwives ;p

Me n Yin Er

Joe & Yin Er

From left to right; Ying Er, Me, Ying Ting (aka MuLan)

Yin Er & Chin Yee

2006-07-02T02:57:00.000+08:00

Wat a tiring day but im not as tired as those who jz came bck from shopping, ;0)

Well, I couldnt believe tat i've made it. And yes, i did. Feli n jou Ann went out today n left me with all those cooking utensils and fresh chicken meats, and vegetables, and garlic, and bluh bluh bluh. An idea flash thru my mind...

4pm, stepped out from my room, took out some chicken meats and vegetables and ikan bilis from the fridge, poured some water into a pot and put some ikan bilis in as well, and yes, put the pot on the cooker. My ikan bilis+vegetables soup should be ready during dinner time, i guess.

Next, defrost the chicken and bck to my room, continue with internet surfing, chatting, downloading songs...And my FMT module notes is still lying comfortably on the study table, functioning as a wrist supporter, wat an amazing discovery!!!

1hour, 2 hours....

Stepped out from my room n yah, u'r rite, it's almost 6pm, and it's MY SHOW TIME...

IM GOING TO COOK DINNER FOR MY HOUSEMATES

Does it sound amusing? Horrifying? Or Amazing? Ha, well, jz for u guys information, i've never done this before and today, 2nd of July, 2006, Im gonna make an entry into the "History of Mine" and for those who's laughing at the moment, plz stop laughing, im not telling a joke.

And here goes...

Step 1; chop the chicken drumticks into smaller pieces, wash, apply some cooking oil + honey + garlic, and massage

Step 2; wrap with aluminium foil and yes, put it into the oven.

1min, 2mins, 3mins,..... 30mins...., 35mins....

My honey roasted chicken is ready to be served and it looks nice in its golden colour. Thank bloody goodness. And yes, this is the protagonist of the day... then fried egg and a pot of vegetable soup..

p/s; thanks to pei sung and jiet hui for giving me such a wonderful idea - the honey roasted chicken

2006-06-29T03:32:00.000+08:00

Edinburgh here i come (part 2)...

Another impressive building

castle

way to castle

secret place found by feli (actually it's a restaurant entrance)

2006-06-25T19:43:00.000+08:00

Edinburgh here I come... (Part 1)

Front door of Queen's Palace

Queen's PaLace

Pic taken from the bus while on our way bck to Glasgow

Another pic taken from the bus

2006-06-21T03:41:00.000+08:00

Randomness...

Self portrait

Me n jou ann posing in the Changi Airport (photo which is grabbed from foo's blogsite)

Me n pei sung - 1

Me n pei sung - 2

My dinner

Marmite chicken

Another self portrait

2006-06-17T16:44:00.000+08:00

West End Festival...

Feli n her "favourites"

Sexy...

2006-06-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

Siao Yong

Me

Jou Ann

2006-06-16T02:04:00.000+08:00

Hostel... (no curfew, no guards, no...)

Living room

Kitchen

Dining room

2006-06-15T03:41:00.000+08:00

It's dinner time...

My "twins"

Me n my fellow housemates

2006-06-15T02:59:00.000+08:00

My room...

My bed + pink colour duvet

View from the window

My study table + laptop

My book shelf

Cupboard + my luggage bag

Heater

2006-06-14T03:07:00.000+08:00

Campus + hostel...

Front view of our hostel

Street outside the hostel

Hostel

Garden

Another view of an apartment

2006-06-13T19:42:00.000+08:00

Randomness...

"Flower bouquet for grandma"

2006-06-13T19:37:00.000+08:00

On my way to London- Heathrow airport.

ErM...

2006-05-31T14:57:00.000+08:00

Well, this is my new blog site as i really dunno wat had happened to my old one. Bought my new laptop yest n really thanks to acrix n zhi yong for teman-ing me yest. Love it so much, n it looks nice in it's black colour design n its 'magnificent' outlook plus it's media player w remote control. It's specially designed for those music lovers, jz like me. ;p It's hp dv 1316ap if im not mistaken.

3rd of june is jz ard da corner n i really dunno wat to buy for my dearest grandma as her birthday present. Plan to buy nothing as my brother had bought a pack of Yu Yan Sang bird's nest for her but mum said it's better if I could manage to get her a small gift.